yay off restriction already cause got my grades back up by doing a few reports on russia and japan.

life as it stands:
turns out nikki dont like me lil sad but im no stranger to rejection so ill live. but also a relief cause now blondey and SamIAm have to stop cracking jokes. wether like anna said im just another guy passing thru her life or she rly want to be my friend dont matter cuz did have a good time. wich the church thing this year was the starter event to my end of the year hyperness so im been in a bit of good mood this pass week even tho i crashed today and was depressed for most of day. which bring up an odd point. ive truely tried to be there for anna to suport her when she was down talking to her help when i can ect, but today she started to ask me what was wrong but before i could even lift my head to reply she'd already started talking to someone else. yepper another one way friendship. but angel was nice she told me to write down everything i feel (was to upset to explain i do that alraedy), and made people leave me be. so that was pretty kind of her so i cheered up a lil after. thats the bad thing bout my good moods i crash from them..hard. ya so i had started to build a wall of a better life but some of the bricks fell out and others are lose, but i blame no one im my own responsibility no one else's.

lets see he talked bout why im sad but id rather end on a good note so bare with me as i try.
...um couldnt come with anything sorry. best i got is my new book is good =/